Well, this blog was meant to be written yesterday, but due to some events that happened I was unable to bring myself to write anything. I was out with K yesterday, we were going to see a film at the cinema and we were also going to have a meal together (which went down the pain, I will explain later).
Anyhow, the day started out sunny, and it also started out with a well-deserved Costa Coffee. I hadn’t had a Costa Coffee for a few weeks, so I think it was well deserved, and on a serious note, I think I was getting withdrawal symptoms (no joke, I need that boost from time-to-time). I didn’t get two drinks this time instead, I only brought one hot chocolate, but it was a large so it was like two drinks, but in one cup.
I had some extra time to kill because I was waiting for K to arrive. So, with that said, I headed over to the local Asda store to pick up a nasal inhaler because I could feel my sinuses were blocking up and I didn’t want it to mess up our day together. So, anyway, back to the Asda store. When I was browsing the items I noticed that Maltesers were on offer, these are one of things I know K enjoys, so I thought why not, she will enjoy them.
So, with those in hand, I headed over to the railway station to wait for K to arrive. After an hour of waiting, K turned up and we headed towards the bus station to get a bus to the cinema. The buses seemed to be all over the place, both myself and K were getting confused over the timetable, it didn’t help that the map application decided to tell us the wrong information. Anyway, after all the confusion, we were finally on the right bus and we were heading towards the cinema. During our bus ride both myself and K were talking about all different things, which was great because I always love our chats.
After a short trip, we were finally off the bus and heading towards the cinema. The day was certainly getting hot at this point, stupidly I was wearing my black coat which made me feel much hotter. I know, such a stupid idea wearing black in warm weather. So, anyway, we were standing in the cinema trying to decide what movie to watch, I left this choice down to K because I didn’t know what movies were out (she knows more than me). This time round, we didn’t have one of our funny arguments because I said you can choose, I don’t mind what we watch. In the end K decided on a film called Identity Theft, which I must admit, it was an awesome film.
So, we had an hour to kill before the movie started, which was good timing because I was in need of a drink and something to eat. We headed over to McDonalds to grab something quick, I only had a McFlurry and a cup of tea which was nice. I didn’t want to have too much because I knew we were going out for a meal after the film. While were eating, I remembered that I brought a signed copy of my book for K, she seemed very pleased with the book, which was the most important thing. I did also leave her a personal message in the book for her, this is what I do for all my signings because it helps the reader feel more connected with the author, but when it’s for-close friends like K, I always leave a message that says how much they mean to me, I know my friends are there for me, but I always like to say how much they Mean to me.
Skipping ahead to after the movie. As I mentioned before, the movie was awesome, but for some reason I can’t remember most of it, maybe I am in still in shock after what happened yesterday. When we were having our meal, I started to choke badly on the medicine and tea I had, as I was choking I was struggling to breathe and I started to have a major panic. I haven’t choked like this for many years, well I don’t think have throughout the whole time I have had my eating disorder which must be around ten years. So, as I was sitting there choking, I didn’t know what to do, K quickly jumped up to give me some help, she gradually rubbed my back to help, and out of nowhere I coughed up all my drink, I also ended up spitting most of the noodles out also, which wasn’t something I wanted K to see because it was disgusting, but it couldn’t be helped, I was choking to death after all. Anyway, after that, I went into a fit of panic, I ended up drinking two pots of tea in a short space of time because I felt like I was still choking. I kept on asking K, do I look okay? She was constantly reassuring me that I was fine, but I am guessing the panic took over me.
I want to personally thank K for saving my life yesterday, I know I probably scared her, but I honestly didn’t mean too. I just wanted to have a nice meal with her because I treasure our friendship, and she has also been one person that has helped me through some of my hard times in recent weeks. So, K, from the bottom of my heart I do thank you, I won’t forget this ever and I will always be there if you need me too. I also hope I didn’t scare you too much.
After this terrifying moment, we decided to head back because I was still having a panic attack. We were supposed to get a bus, but in the end we decided to walk because the bus would take ages to arrive. I nearly got us lost while walking back because the map application I used on my phone was playing up and I wasn’t in the mood, in the end I decided to call a taxi, it was much easier and it saved us a bit of time. When we arrived into the town, we went across to see if Costa Coffee was open, but on this occasion it wasn’t because they closed before we arrived in town.
So, in the end, we decided that it was time to head home. I never like saying goodbyes, and after what happened I felt like I messed up the day completely. When K went home her train, I waited in the station for my time to arrive. As I was waiting, I sat on a bench in tears because I felt like I messed everything up, including our friendship, I know this might sound stupid, but it did shock me in that way, and even when I think about it now, I still think I have messed up our friendship. Anyhow, with that said, even though this did happen, I still enjoyed our day together.
I think it’s going to take sometime to get over this, and this is why I have decided to stop writing & blogging until the start of June. This means that the spring series book comes to end today and I will be back at the start of June writing the new series. I am sorry if this has disappointed anyone, but due to the circumstances surrounding my eating disorder, I don’t want it to go back to how it was because I was doing really well. So, until June, catch you soon!