This blog is somewhat a mix of thoughts, moans, and somewhere in between, there is a mix of aspirations deep at its core beyond these ramblings.
I often find myself wondering what life would be like if things were different, maybe I’d be in better places, or even have a better experience.
Who knows, right? Perhaps we are all dealt different cards in life to mix it up a bit, after all, not all of us can be in the same field of interest, and nor can we be the same as one another because that would make life a complete drag. But, I guess the critical thing here is that we are not all alike, and in the end, we will all excel in some way, and that’s even if life doesn’t go the way you envisioned it.
My goals in life are simple, find something you like and stick to it. Even though in hindsight, I should have stopped myself after the third hobby because trying to remember everything these days is becoming a task in itself.
When I was about sixteen, I would think of things that I wanted to do after the school years came to an end. Obviously, you grow up with an idea of what you want to do in earlier years, but that is through the eyes of pre-adolescent imagination. At this point, all they know about is Santa Claus, The Easter Bunny, and The Tooth Fairy. It isn’t focused on how they are going to make a difference to this world. And I am no exception from this. As I grew up, my life was focused a lot on computer technology, and in some ways shaped who I am. I use technology every day, and it makes everything more accessible, it’s like that central point that glues it all together.
I’ve dabbled into many things authoring, programming, web design, computer repair, podcasting, music production, and even making YouTube videos. And in their own little ways, they have all given me somewhat of a success. Which seems backwards considering my background. I was a school drop out at fifteen and a half with a list of failed GCSE’s, minus the French A star that I got without attending the exam, and neither knowing more than old Del Boy and his backwards Citreon manual. If you don’t get the reference, I would suggest doing a Google Search for “Del Boy Citreon Manual.”
I have also faced many limitations due to birth issues because of Cerebral Palsy being lovingly placed upon me. Not a big deal, but it sure has its moments. People always say that what we lack in physical ability, we then gain in mental capacity. Sometimes I think I am the smartest person going, that is until you are sat there dribbling down your own shirt and not knowing how to count to three. True story, I wish it wasn’t.
But, despite all this, I have been able to lead a tolerable life. It may not be the best, but it certainly isn’t the worst. Even though I wish things were more comfortable, especially for the hobbies that I want people to remember me for in years to come. Life’s success isn’t measured in silly numbers, it is in fact, regulated by the legacy you lead and the morals you teach to others throughout your time on this planet.
One day, it is my dream to make everyone proud of what I have ensured to be my own success, whether that be hobbies, a great partner, or even a faithful family man. But, I know one thing, it will be because of the core values instilled to me by my parents, and in which, even though not said very often, I genuinely thank them for it. I also thank them for believing in me when life kicks me in the crouch and when their help gets me through the clouded moments.
As you can see, this indeed has turned into a ramble, and somewhere in this, you will find comfort or even humour as I fail to get my core message across. Having a learning disability certainly does this to a person, but I fight through it with a few words and a Grammarly subscription that promptly tells me when I have messed up. But, if you missed the point of this, it was simple.
Live life the best you can no matter what cards you are dealt, for its not the cards that are the problem, it’s how you play them.