I think it’s safe to say that we all at times re-evaluate our lives to see what can make things a lot smoother and stress-free. I have been caught between this re-evaluation period for some months now and I can certainly determine without any doubt that it has been a wise experience, Many long term friends that I went to school with have faced the chop and even long standing friends from my childhood have faced the same fate.
When drastic actions like this are undertook it usually doesn’t affect anyone within a close circle, but mine has needed that push to think who will be there in the long run. I can’t say that it’s been easy, nor can I say that it’s been something I set out to do, but I can say that it has been something I needed to do. I had to do it, I could not allow it to continue on that road, and that is why I had to make a new road for myself even if that meant going at it alone.
Many people blocked me from social media months ago for choices I made-which is fine-but at times I don’t think anyone grasps the fact that you have to make your own choices and take any risks whether it means you lose people or not.
You know what my problem is? Being too trusting and caring. People over the years have taken advantage of that on a big scale. Many of those who I have trusted with huge amounts of money and who have now left me high & dry to pick up pieces of my life that were once stable which are now ruining a possible future. I often blame myself for being too kind to people because I know ultimately that it is my fault because I allowed it to happen. I allowed them to have that privilege, but they were only after one thing-by the way this is many people, not just one person.
Over a course of four years, my life has been on a downhill. Money has dwindled, people have walked away, and my health has diminished. I predicted a lot of my future and it’s beyond crazy.
In 2009 I predicted that my money situation would start in early 2015 which would foresee me losing any savings or luxury goods. Even though the timing wasn’t correct I did see a loss as of late 2015; close enough.
As of 2011, I predicted that I would have a heart problem within four years. Which they did in early 2013, but a final diagnosis was made in mid-2016. I was admitted into the hospital the on 17th January 2013 with a heart rate of 154 which they put it down to anxiety. After three years and many tests later, they discovered that my body produced too much adrenaline, and this was their final conclusion as they found no other defects with my heart or health.
Late 2013 I also predicted my massive weight gain-but I’m not sure whether this was a lucky guess or life changes. Either way, whatever it was I gained fifty-four pounds within two years.
With all this said, has my life just dealt me a bad hand or was my life determined to head in this direction? Or could it be possible that I foresee my own future? Crazy as it may seem it might be true and no one will ever know if my predictions were true.
There’s a little brain teaser for you to mule over.
So, I have finally decided to get life insurance, not that I am happy about doing because I’ve always been against it. Over the years many friend’s and family members have advised me about life insurance, but I’ve never felt the need to take a policy out because in my opinion it’s all about death and that’s one thing I don’t like talking about. It seems so final to me, and until now I’ve never wanted to discuss it.
But, I gave it some thought yesterday and I came to the conclusion that it was better to have cover then leaving people with huge bills when and if I pass away. I shouldn’t say because I know it’s going to happen, but I just don’t like thinking about it, or talking about it.
Now, don’t go getting ideas to kill me off, I can see those cogs working in your mind, but I’m ahead of your game. I know that was a crazy bit of humour.
Anyhow, I am off now to do some more writing, the joys of being a writer!
It’s been some time since I have written a blog, and in all honesty, it has been a long time since I’ve written anything. Life has been very weird recently, but then again, it has been very hectic too. I had a health scare back in the early part of January this year, it was like a jack-in-the-box, sprung out from nowhere, and even after tests they never knew what was causing my heart to race; oh sorry, there was one thing they blamed and that was a medication I was taking to help me sleep, apparently if it is used over time it can do damage to nerves in the brain, which therefore causes other problems. After this scary event, I was told that I had to take a beta blocker every day of my life to prevent this from happening again; how enjoyable is that?
Anyhow, apart from the health problem, I’ve been keeping busy with the house move, which in hindsight, this move was much easier than previous moves we’d done before. The only thing that’s left to do is the carpets for the two main bedrooms, but that isn’t something we have to get done straight away. I’ve been living here over a month now, and I can certainly say it is very quiet, you hardly hear any noise, so it’s all a plus for me.
I am going to skip ahead to the important subject of this blog, and that is books. Now, there will be plenty more publications from me, but I am taking my time over certain projects. Many projects are being wrote at once, plenty of fresh ideas, and a lot of expanding on existing book series’. The one character I am looking to expand further is Mr. GIT, he is such a quirky character, never holding back his opinion. I wonder what he would be like as a detective?
The GIT series has always amazed me, he was loosely based off of real people, and somehow, I mixed them together and came up with Mr. GIT; such a surprise when you think about it. But, all-in-all, this little character has become a small success, the eBooks are downloaded every day without fail, and I couldn’t be more thankful. Now, let’s not forget, this series wouldn’t have been possible if I didn’t have the support from my co-author Steve Wright, which ironically, he is one of the people I based Mr. GIT on, so it is a pleasure to do this alongside Steve, his humour smooths off, and makes the eBooks complete.
Again, thanks to everyone who is supporting me during this time, remember I won’t let anything beat me, so keep an eye on this space because there’s plenty more to come.
The title of this blog says it all, who is this weird fictional character that insists on moaning at everything? Well, if truth be told, not even myself or Steve (co-author) know exactly who this character is, sounds stupid because we were the ones that came up with the whole idea of Mr. Git. I think the idea loosely came from me—not that I’m trying to credit hog. During one evening of October 2013, I sat and thought about making a character that had many comical traits. Now, by all means making a new character is a big task, but I’m lucky, I’m always around funny people and this helps the process go along smoothly—more smoothly than you would think, it took me five minutes … No joke.
Let’s take a look at whom I chose, some of them might seem obvious, but it was a no brainer. Firstly, I started off with my father. His humour and wit is at the core, it’s what drives Mr. Git along, and without this he would boring. Secondly, I wanted Mr. Git to be a miserable old man, someone who would be moody, but at his core, a harmless human being. So, running through the choices, I knew there was only one man, or should I say attitude that I was looking for. This man was the one and only Victor Meldrew, if you’ve seen the BBC sitcom “One Foot in The Grave” you will understand why I chose this character. Finally, the last person I based Mr. Git on was my best friend and co-author Steve. He has a fantastic sense of humour that tops off this character’s sense of humour and complements it perfectly. I feel that it’s a privilege to work alongside a best friend, especially when he finds out the drawings on the covers are based on him too—but I know this won’t offend Steve, he knows me too well.
Throughout this series of free ebooks, myself and Steve think of different subjects to moan about. These subjects could be anything, but of course within reason, and written in a way to bring across a valid point without offending the reader.
So, head over to one of these stores to download the ebooks for free: Smashwords, Goodreads, Barnes & Noble, or the iBookStore—there are many others, but I’m not sitting here all night listing them, that’s what Google search is for.
Anyway, I’m off, chat to you all in the next blog.
Well, it’s Friday the 13th, the most feared day of the year according to the suspicious people of the world. I never understood why people worry about Friday the 13th, it’s a normal day, nothing more and nothing less.
Anyhow, before I give you all a lecture, let’s discuss a different topic. The camping is going great so far, it’s been relaxing, and most of all, it had been peaceful. The first day was amazing, while we were traveling in the car, I spent the time talking to Steve on a FaceTime call—thank you unlimited data! As always there were many laughs and jokes between us, it wouldn’t be normal if we didn’t joke around.
Today was the day I had to ring the doctor to see whether they’ve had my test results back. When I rang, they weren’t sure if the tests came back yet, but after a quick search, they located both results. Well, here goes nothing, the tests came back all clear, which is fantastic news, but then again, it still leaves one question, what is causing me to feel this sick? I will be seeing my doctor when I get home because there must be something causing it, knowing my luck it will be something simple. I do have a few theories about what it could be; one of them suggests that my anxiety could be the problem because it’s been unstable recently. Either way, I’ll see what the doctor has to say, no point thinking of what it could be because it could be completely wrong.
Hunstanton Beach September 2013
We spent most of the day in Hunstanton, it was nice to walk along the seafront, the air was fresh, and again, it was peaceful. After a short walk around the shops, we decided to grab some food from a chip shop we found. I didn’t have anything to eat, these stomach problems were giving me many problems, but I did manage to have a cup of tea.
Saturday, 14 September, 2013
The rain has been battering our tent all night, and to top it off, the curry we had last night upset my stomach and had me up at all hours. I can remember when I could eat anything without having these problems, but those days are over for me–thanks stomach, you ruined it for me. Anyway, enough complaining. We are off to Cromer today, it’s a bit like Hunstanton, but it’s a bit bigger.
Cromer Beach 2013
Cromer was a very nice place, it’s a busy little town, it reminded me of the TV series “Last of the summer wine”. This would be a lovely place to retire in years to come. We started our walk near the pier, the wind was strong, it blew us in every direction. After we went around a few shops, I started to feel thirsty. It was time for a drop of tea. We found a cafè called “Breakers Cafè”–it can be found on Gardens Street. Their prices were very cheap, a cup of tea was 90p, can’t turn down that bargain–better than paying London prices. If you’re passing by, I would highly recommend that you drop in.
Once we finished out drinks, it was time to find a place to eat. I wanted something to eat, but there wasn’t anything I felt comfortable eating in the restaurant. I know it’s silly, but I can’t push myself when I feel uneasy, knowing my luck I’ll choke on something. After I made the decision not to have anything, I started to feel depressed. I don’t why this started, I was having a lovely day and I had no reason to feel like this.
So, as you can guess, the drive home was quiet. I didn’t want to say much because I felt unwell, and I also wanted to keep my problems quiet so I didn’t raise any concerns. Maybe it was the lack of food that caused my low mood? I’m never 100% sure what causes these moods, I guess it’s a case of trial and error with these things.
When we arrived back at the tent, mum made me a quick dinner, she could tell I was hungry. Anyhow, I had my meal, which filled a hole, but it didn’t improve my low mood. I guess I’ll have to ride this out and see what tomorrow brings.
Hunstanton Beach Windy Day September 2013
Sunday, 15 September, 2013
The cold weather has hit is hard today, and the gale force winds are set to test the strength of our tent–hopefully we won’t blow away. When I woke this morning, I could feel the bitter air wash over my feet like ice-cold daggers. No matter how much I tried, I couldn’t get warm.
Lunchtime came along fast, which meant it was nearly time for everyone to have lunch at the camp restaurant. Unfortunately, I didn’t join them, but I did have a small meal at the tent. While everyone else was lunching, I decided to watch some television-yes we took a television-and write some of this blog. After an hour went by. Everyone came back, and it was time to get some shopping from the local Tesco shop.
When we arrived at the shop, we all decided what we were buying. Myself and Laura went off together to get our shopping, we left mum and dad to grab what they needed. As we were browsing through the books, we heard a massive bang. Laura went to investigate, and it turned out to be one of their checkouts exploding–some clever sod spilt water on it. Moments after, an alarm went off and the staff were asking everyone to evacuate the building immediately.
The race was on. We had to reach the next Tesco in Hunstanton before it closed at 5pm. While we were heading towards the shop, I was checking to see what kind of shop it was because the last thing we needed was an express shop-I won’t go into a rant about that today. So, thanks to poor phone connectivity, the nearest one came up as an express shop. I thought this was rather odd, the next shop should have been a superstore because it was closer to us-failed technology at its best.
When we arrived at the second shop, myself and Laura went off together again in search of the books we picked up in the previous shop. Unfortunately, the shop had none of the books, but they had the new James Patterson novel I wanted.
So, with shopping in hand, we got back in the car and headed back to the tent–well, that’s if mum doesn’t get us lost first. Mum decided to direct dad through the countryside route–which added thirty minutes to our journey–and we were treated to miles of fields to look at.
Monday, 16 September, 2013
Well, it turns out that my stomach had other plans for me today. I’ve had none stop problems all day; pains, spasms, and to top it all off, I have a cold. I guess these problems won’t disappear overnight–would be great if they did.
Dad decided that we were going on a cat journey today, which was okay, but I didn’t fancy it due to my stomach problems. I knew I couldn’t let this get to me, so I decided to fill my hot water bottle to take with me. The start of the journey was a bumpy ride for my stomach, with every bump I clutched onto my hot water bottle, holding in hope that my pains settled down.
Our first stop was to the Tesco that experienced a checkout breakdown yesterday–they were still yapping on about it. I finally brought the two books I wanted the day before, I had them in the trolley yesterday, but as you already know, I had no chance to buy them–the checkout decided to explode with excitement …
While we were browsing, I had a sudden urge to buy iced buns. This was something random, it felt like I was a pregnant woman with bad cravings. I do this most of the time, I guess you could call it a weird quirk of mine.
Anyhow, the journey went okay, but I won’t hide the fact I fell asleep a few times from boredom. The last stop we made was to Hunstanton to pick up some gifts for Hannah, Amber, and Mia–notice those initials spell HAM? I didn’t get them anything because I forgot to withdraw money, but never fear, I’ll get them something when I get home.
So, on that note, it’s time to sign off on this blog post. I hope you all enjoyed reading and looking at the pictures. Until the next blog, stay safe and take care.
This blog is somewhat late—five days to be exact—I can only apologies for this. Health problems have kicked me seven ways from Sunday, it’s crazy how this condition renders me helpless and I have to lie in bed all day. I’m hoping the tests come back today or tomorrow, it’s been nearly a week now so, I can’t see why they wouldn’t have it.
Let’s discuss something else away from all these health issues. I brought a new phone two days ago because my iPhone 5 has started to develop a few problems that were getting on my nerves—ironically this happens just before the warranty expires, thanks Apple …
The phone I got as a replacement was the Samsung Galaxy S3, even though this wasn’t my preferred choice, but it was better than nothing at all. As you all know, or even if didn’t know, I’m an avid fan of the Apple platform. Since 2007 I’ve owned many iPhones, and even though many of these broke down, I still remained loyal to the platform. The only thing that has put me off is the hardware faults, I thought faults where a thing of the past, but I guess I was wrong.
Anyhow, I’m off camping for a week tomorrow with my family, so don’t expect miracles for the blog. I will try to write and upload a blog during the week, but either way, you will find updates and photos across my social media pages—Facebook and Twitter. So, on that note, I’m off now to pack. Until the next blog, stay safe and take care.
Well, that was a weird start to the day—like always. I started to feel very unwell, but after one or another, this sick feeling changed into a controlled fever. This made me feel like a fire that had been burning for hours, imagine the roaring heat radiating all over your body and slowly pulsating from head to foot, and the heat is making you sweat uncontrollably. As you can imagine, this isn’t a nice feeling, but this is how I’ve been feeling all day.
Anyhow, I don’t want to bore you all with my health problems, even though, it’s a fact of life—unfortunately—we get sick and it’s something we all go through. So, with sickness still plaguing me, I had no choice, but to lie down on my bed and rest. I know I’m behind on many projects, but what author isn’t? Sometimes we can’t keep to the deadlines we set ourselves, but ironically I’m going to say it doesn’t matter. These things aren’t life or death, keeping yourself healthy is life or death. As the old saying goes, your health is most important and put yourself first.
Well, there’s me thinking that these problems had subsided. After I had dinner, I started to feel very hot, and worse of all, a panic attack has started. There’s wishful thinking, now I’m having to have a few puffs on my electric cigarette to calm me down. The best thing I can do is go to bed because it will help settle me down—I hope anyway. The weather isn’t helping matters, it’s very hot at the moment and my body is certainly hating it.
Talking about things my body hate, I’ve got a blood test tomorrow, and I’m not looking forward to it. Having blood taken isn’t really the issue, it’s more the “what ifs” afterwards. I guess I’m afraid that something bad will appear and that will be the end of my life. I know I shouldn’t think like this, but I have massive fears, and most of all, I haven’t finished achieving what I need to yet.
Anyhow, enough of being morbid, I’m off to lie down and watch some television. Until the next blog, stay safe and take care.
6 September 2013: Friday
Today started out with an appointment at the doctors, which I wasn’t looking forward to—that’s putting it politely. I hate having these tests, it always makes me think that something bad will crop up—it will be just my luck. Anyhow, I don’t think it will be too bad, they’ve already hinted that I may have IBD (Inflamed Bowel Disease).
I often wonder how nurses can do their jobs, after all, taking blood isn’t one of the most appealing perks of the job.
After I had my blood taken, it was time to meet up with my sister (Cassie). We were heading into the town centre to grab some shopping, and to also buy a new bed for me.
The bed I have is starting to become uncomfortable, it feels like I’m lying on a bed of bricks, and no matter what way I sleep it puts strain on my body.
I’m having to stop the blog here for now because I’ve got some pain, I’ll have to discuss this on Sunday. Until the next blog, stay safe & take care.
Turns out, I never got to watch all of The Big Bang Theory season six in the end. I spent most of the evening writing parts of a novel, which I can’t tell you about, but I’m sure it will cause a buzz when it’s published—I hope. There are many reasons behind this, and in time—many years time—I will tell you what I did, but until I’ve proven my theory, I will be keeping my lips jammed shut, and not even my family will know about this.
I need to mention something about last nights dinner—hold on to your funny bone because this will crack you up. We were having pasta bake, and in my sisters (Cassie) wisdom she decided to add some homegrown chillies to it, which isn’t uncommon for her to do because it gives the food an extra kick. Before we had the meal, my sister explained that she only put “a few” chillies in it, which seemed fine. Now, as we were eating the meal, it became apparent to us all that there certainly was a kick. Here comes the funny part, once we finished the meal, my sister disclosed how many chillies she put in the meal. In the English Oxford dictionary it defines “few” as three, but this wasn’t my sister’s definition. The definition of a few to her is seven, yes that’s right, we had seven green chillies in the meal, and now thanks to that my stomach doesn’t know what to do with itself. To be honest, it wasn’t that bad, it was nice, but it was just very spicy.
I’ve not done much else today, I really need to catch up with reading, I’ve only got eighty pages left before I’ve completed “Second Honeymoon” by James Patterson. Once I’ve finished reading the book, I’ll leave a review on GoodReads and the blog. While I’ve got that in mind, I’m off to lie on my bed for a while with that book. I’ve started to feel drained and I need to take my mind off those bad feelings.
I’ll have to leave the reading until later this evening, by the time I came to read, it was time to eat dinner.
Anyhow, on a different note, I have some good news. If you’ve purchased any of my books in paperback form via Amazon, you will now be eligible to download those books as an ebook format via the Kindle store. This is under a new program called “MatchBook” ran by Amazon, this simply allows Authors to give out the ebook version free if they buy the in-print version. I don’t know what will happen if you purchase the ebook first, I am assuming they won’t offer a refund. I’ve enabled this option on all my books and this should be active by the time I’ve posted this blog.
So, on that happy news, I’m off to lie down with a book—Second Honeymoon to be precise. Until the next blog, keep out of trouble and take care.
4 September 2013: Wednesday
Bad infection, it’s a Hindrance!
Well, it’s been a very bad day for me. After I arrived home from the shop, I started to feel very unwell. I don’t know what caused this, but it was enough to push me to get an urgent appoint with my doctor. While I waited for the appointment time to come along, I spent the time lying on my bed. I don’t know how much more I can take of this infection,—it’s a hindrance—I’ve only had it since the end of August, but somehow I feel like I’ve had it for months.
Anyhow, I’m going to brief and cut to the chase. I’ve got to have a few tests to determine what’s causing this infection, and believe me, I’ll be glad when this infection has passed. I’m hoping this isn’t anything serious because this is the last thing I need—I just want to be healthy and normal.
I’m going to stop the blog for today, as you can appreciate, this problem has knocked me for six and I need to rest as much as I can. Let’s hope I’ll bounce back soon. So, until the next blog, be well and safe.
So, what a speedy two week break that was! I don’t understand how time flies by so quickly, it’s like some kid is sat at the hands of time, just spinning and spinning like roulette wheel. These last two weeks have been very sickly, to say the least. I think my body is sending me a message to slow down, its come to the point where I’m not even enjoying what I do, and my panic levels have gone off the charts to the point where I’ve had to use an electric cigarette.
In terms of the electric cigarette, I know it isn’t one of the healthiest, or even logical forms of therapy, but it helps and that’s all that matters. There are many reasons why I chose this method. One, use of nicotine can calm anxiety or stress. Two, I’m able to buy menthol flavor which has proven to help me in the past, and three, it gives me a quick release whenever I’m feeling anxious.
Now, keep in mind that I’m not chain smoking this thing to death, I’m simply using it when I feel anxious. This “shouldn’t” cause any long lasting effects to my health, and even if it did, what does it matter? We are all sucking car fumes every day, so in my eyes, I’m doing the lesser of two evils. I know some people are going to say that electronic cigarettes are the worst, but if that’s true then go suck on a car exhaust because I know you won’t last long sucking on that thing!
Anyway, ignore my arrogance, even though many of you will agree with me, how ironic is that? I had better have a rest for a while, it’s currently 6:10am and I’ve hardly had any sleep (thanks pain).
Well, the day has flown by faster than the bullet train on electric steroids. I don’t know whether it’s me, but it seems like every day just flies by, and I feel like I have nothing to show for all the hours that have gone by. Which makes me think, can I allow this to continue? Or do I find another method to achieve all my goals?
I’ve probably mentioned this before in previous blogs, but for some reason, this keeps cropping up in my thoughts and somehow it messes with how I feel. So, with that said, I need to find a way around this lack of achievement that I’m feeling. Maybe I am achieving, and, somehow my mind is disregarding the truth and clouding my judgement.
I’m sure I’ll figure something out, a good sleep will help regain the leap of my senses. Tomorrow should be a better day for me because the new “Big Bang Theory” season should arrive tomorrow, well I hope anyway …
So, to recap, I’m back with some good health, and a new approach to writing—as you can tell by the humor I added about sucking on exhaust pipes. The next three months should prove to be more uplifting as the colder weather approaches, no doubt I’ll complain about that too! I am now off to get some sleep before I get cranky, and believe me, you don’t want to see that!
2 September 2013: Monday
Big Bang Season Six
The day started off early for me, it wasn’t as early as I wanted, but sure enough, it was still early if you take into consideration of the previous weeks of waking up near 10am every day. I was meant to ring the doctors this morning to discuss the recent downturn with my health, but due to the sudden change, I felt that I didn’t need to bother my doctor. If this changes, I’ll have to seek medical help, something tells I won’t need to because the weather is starting to change, which means it’s starting to cool down and get to a level that my body prefers—I swear I need to move to a cooler climate.
I don’t have much planned today, the only thing I’m looking forward to is coming back home and watching “The Big Bang Theory Series Six”. I’ve had it on pre-order for twelve months, and it may seem crazy, but I’ve purposely stopped myself from watching any of the episodes. So, when I get back this afternoon, I will be barricading myself in my room and watching each disc back-to-back—477 minuets of Big Bang pleasure, and yes I am aware that sounded rude, get your minds out the gutter.
Anyhow, I must dash, this stuff won’t sort itself. So, until the next blog, stay safe and take care.