I think it’s safe to say that we all at times re-evaluate our lives to see what can make things a lot smoother and stress-free. I have been caught between this re-evaluation period for some months now and I can certainly determine without any doubt that it has been a wise experience, Many long term friends that I went to school with have faced the chop and even long standing friends from my childhood have faced the same fate.
When drastic actions like this are undertook it usually doesn’t affect anyone within a close circle, but mine has needed that push to think who will be there in the long run. I can’t say that it’s been easy, nor can I say that it’s been something I set out to do, but I can say that it has been something I needed to do. I had to do it, I could not allow it to continue on that road, and that is why I had to make a new road for myself even if that meant going at it alone.
Many people blocked me from social media months ago for choices I made-which is fine-but at times I don’t think anyone grasps the fact that you have to make your own choices and take any risks whether it means you lose people or not.
You know what my problem is? Being too trusting and caring. People over the years have taken advantage of that on a big scale. Many of those who I have trusted with huge amounts of money and who have now left me high & dry to pick up pieces of my life that were once stable which are now ruining a possible future. I often blame myself for being too kind to people because I know ultimately that it is my fault because I allowed it to happen. I allowed them to have that privilege, but they were only after one thing-by the way this is many people, not just one person.
Over a course of four years, my life has been on a downhill. Money has dwindled, people have walked away, and my health has diminished. I predicted a lot of my future and it’s beyond crazy.
In 2009 I predicted that my money situation would start in early 2015 which would foresee me losing any savings or luxury goods. Even though the timing wasn’t correct I did see a loss as of late 2015; close enough.
As of 2011, I predicted that I would have a heart problem within four years. Which they did in early 2013, but a final diagnosis was made in mid-2016. I was admitted into the hospital the on 17th January 2013 with a heart rate of 154 which they put it down to anxiety. After three years and many tests later, they discovered that my body produced too much adrenaline, and this was their final conclusion as they found no other defects with my heart or health.
Late 2013 I also predicted my massive weight gain-but I’m not sure whether this was a lucky guess or life changes. Either way, whatever it was I gained fifty-four pounds within two years.
With all this said, has my life just dealt me a bad hand or was my life determined to head in this direction? Or could it be possible that I foresee my own future? Crazy as it may seem it might be true and no one will ever know if my predictions were true.
There’s a little brain teaser for you to mule over.